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stolen soul

My heart is jaded
Completely desolate inside
No longer feel alive

Depleted by negativity
Drained of all emotion
Impalpable to society
Always feeling like there is no place here for me

Now an isolated figure
so far away
Time has broken me
And plagued my memory

Detached from myself
Walking empty and alone
Soulless victim
Angel of misery



gugurnya tugu ilusi

Terhimpit pilu di dada,
Mengalir deras air mata,
Kala sepi terus melanda,
Sayu, pilu ku terasa...

Sewaktu dingin malam berlalu,
Bintang menjadi tempat mengadu,
Persoalan membelengu diri,
Duka menghiris hati ini.

Apakah memang ku bersalah?
Untuk memendam rasa cinta?
Adakah benar cinta yang ku alami?
Atau hanya sekadar ilusi?

Pabila ku hampir terlena,
Pelukan bayangmu yang ku rasa,
Alunan suaramu membisik sayu di telinga,
Lakaran wajahmu menghiasi mimpi indah...

Akan ku musnahkan tugu harapan,
Akan ku anggap kau sebagai teman,
Sekiranya kita berdua,
Tidak ditakdirkan bersama...



unanswered?

What has my lyfe morphed into?
I've been hurt,
Wounded ever so deeply.
But does anyone care?
You, you, or even you?
No, everybody's juz busy wit their lyfes.
Carin' for their own happiness,
Oblivious to the surrounding.
The fake, "I care for u!" phrase,
I'm tired of it all.
Just let me weep & cry in silence.
Let my heart bleed.
Coz it doesn't matter to u,
No it doesn't.
U dun even wonder y.
Do u?

Shattered,
Broken,
Hurt,
Tired,
Wounded,
Bruised,
Unanswered?

Wearin' a fake smile,
I enclosed the sadness in me..
I create lame jokes,
To liven up the joyness within me.
But does it really lasts long?
Am I that strong?
To hide how hurt I am?
Am I?

Leave me alone.
For all that matters now,
Im gonna be like u-
Ignorant to everytin'
It's no use to pretend that u care,
I'm dead.
Every hour & minute,
Is my death...



hanya untuk mu...

Tatkala bintang menemani bumi,
Memori dahulu ku kupas kembali.
Rindu pun bertandang,
Kemasyghulan menyelimuti hati...

Berbaring pada ambin kebingungan,
Aku menyelak tabir kenangan,
Mencari penamat beribu soalan...
"Mengapa? Mengapa? Aku gugup.

Seringkali bayangan mu diingati,
Kesyahduan menenggelami jiwa.
Aku dambakan belaian mu,
Tangan yang mengusap lembut dahiku...

Namun, semuanya telah ditelan waktu.
13 tahun sudah pun berlalu.
Kau telah lama pergi dan tidak mungkin kan kembali.
Aku mengerti, kau yang lebih disayangi...

Ayah, mungkinkah dikau sedang sentiasa
mendoakan puterimu ini?
Melihatku mengorak langkah ke alam dewasa...
Dari jendela istana abadimu disana?

Hanya dapat ku titip doa,
Diiringi jernih air mataku...
Semoga Tuhan menempatkanmu di tempat
orang-orang yang beriman.
Semoga jua Tuhan mencucuri rahmat keatas rohmu...
Amin.

prinsessa

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Saturday, December 24, 2005

HO! HO! HO! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL WHO CELEBRATES CHRISTMAS!!!! AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR DEARIES!!!


penat bangat sih! gue baru pulang dari kerja! hahaha... i received many x'mas gifts todae. we actually did a christmas exhange thingy n i get tis chinese gurl to give my gift to. well, surprisingly, she got me too... =) so the "ke ai- cute" kan??? awwwww...
aniwaes, i bought tis crystal handphone thingy 4 her. i'm not satisfied wit the gift i gave to her tho. nggak ada ongkos lah gue. haiyah.... nvm, i told her i'll give her an xtra gift on the 10th wen i got my pay... actually i've planned to give her sum cute2 stuffs but due to sum unavoidable circumstances (ceh...) i had to give it a miss... (watever syahida... watever)


u noe wat she gave me???? tis very the cute flask from disney!!! to enhance it all, it's actually yellow in color!!! i juz lurveeee it man!!!! soooo cute!!!! i've got the biggest amongst the rest!!! wahahahahaha... n i gave her two pathetic sets of crystal.. bleargh. *vomits blood* pathetic syahida, pathetic gift. totally PATHETIC.
ohkay, lemme ctnue.


names will not be mentioned due to privacy. khekhekhe...
frm my manager- a set of different chocolates, a YELLOWISH-golden h/p chain, n a CUTE YELLOW diary.
my phillipino colleague- 1 box of ferrero roche!!! weeeee....
my supervisor- a CUTE pink planner
my poly classmate/colleague- 1 box of choco
my malay colleague- aromatheraphy thingy which i had dropped sumwhere on the way home dute to a hole in the plastic bag. oh well,,,,,,,
eh, u guys realised sumtin'? actually most of my prezzies r cute. u wanna noe y? bcoz i'm cute!!! i'm syahida, the adorable.
hahahahahahaha... feelin' abis ini budak cute...


fun rite xchangin' gifts? last tyme we actually had tis chinese neighbour who rent the hse nxt door. she'll buy x'mas gifts for my family. wen the clock hits midnight, we'll rush to her hse n shout merry x'mas. there, our prezzies were packed nicely under the christmas tree. i still have the pic tat we had taken durin' christmas. too bad myy scanner mcm taik... not workin' lah.
well, happy x'mas to all again!!!!


oh, santa, can u hear my wishes for christmas? n pls, dun 4get to grant it as well k... *muahs*



toodles pple!

with love, syahida at 12/24/2005 11:57:00 PM

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