Tuesday, April 24, 2012

I dint give u my all cuz i know, ur not worth giving my all to.
♥ with love, syahida ♥ at 4/24/2012 07:10:00 PM

Monday, April 23, 2012

I'm sorry if I'm not that "miss perfect"... I'm gonna prove u wrong cuz I'm more than what u think I am. I shall soar higher and insya'Allah, be that independent person. Dreams... It's never wrong to dream... And with Allah's will, everything will fall in place... اَمِين يَا رَبَّ الْعَالَمِيْن
♥ with love, syahida ♥ at 4/23/2012 10:48:00 PM

Absence of consequences will make one lax and hence leads to complacency. Agree? Everything happens for a reason... It's a test on whether how much we can accept or overcome it. The outcome reflects the type of person u r.Yes, life is unfair but God is fair. :) Everything that we possessed now regardless beauty, brains, family or friends are all "borrowed" and have to be returned one day... Therefore, be thankful of who we have or what we have achieved. "To God we belong, to him is our return."
♥ with love, syahida ♥ at 4/23/2012 09:33:00 PM

Sunday, March 04, 2012

“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”
♥ with love, syahida ♥ at 3/04/2012 11:41:00 PM

Monday, September 26, 2011

It's tiring... having to keep running and running away from those scary moments that is haunting you. In the end, you'll still fall into that deep, dark hole that you're fearful about. The cycle keeps repeating itself. And there you go, wounded, leaving scars after scars. Traumatizing u, nightmares settling in the moment u close your eyes. How shall I put a stop to it? How can I put a stop to it? Yes, I may need someone to guide, stay and comfort me... But in the end, I'm still gonna be the only one going through it.

The future, it's hazy, dark, negative and scary to me. I'm really terrified facing everyday in life cause I know, I ain't strong. I don't know what I'm capable of doing. Ya Allah...
♥ with love, syahida ♥ at 9/26/2011 09:18:00 PM

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Baby Mateen!!!!!






♥ with love, syahida ♥ at 8/16/2011 12:55:00 AM

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

All our efforts just go down the drain. Each and every single one of us had adrenaline pumping in us and prepped ready for the performance. Thinking we could perform- winning or losing does not matter. Can't you just wait? Even the judges were'nt there yet. mofos.

It's never about winning cause I know, there are many strong contenders. It's about performing as a team. Instead, u pushed 3 of us in, asking us to perform regardless of the judge being M.I.A, regardless my 2 other team members have yet to show up. U make us feel humiliated walking up the stage. And then, the emcee goes blabbering on covering our song and there goes no chance for us at all. It seems like we've been forced to dance. It seems like we're some prostitutes there on the stage. I felt like crying there, on the stage and even though it's over now, it feels like a nightmare.

And YOUR STUPID reason, "There are VVIPs in there, we have got no time. Minimum is 2 person so even 2 person can go in and perform."

To hell with your reason. IT totally does not answer why we can't perform as a team. Well, it is a competition but afterall, it's a nurses' day and we're not performing in a live television show. Dude, I've lost respect for you even though you're a superior. Worst of all, u make us all cry on the 1st day of Ramadhan. God is fair, Karma will be on its way. Amin.
♥ with love, syahida ♥ at 8/02/2011 05:15:00 PM

Saturday, July 23, 2011

this is, lil mak tiri... the naughty girl!




♥ with love, syahida ♥ at 7/23/2011 02:51:00 AM

Sunday, July 03, 2011

Look!!! My bag is on its wayyyyyyy all the way from US to Korea!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! Mr postman, hurry up!!!!! And I think my watch is making its way too!!!!!!!! Can't wait any longer. HURRY!!!!!




♥ with love, syahida ♥ at 7/03/2011 02:35:00 AM

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

All that I hope and all that I wish for, is to have a happy life- but my wish would not come true. I'm sorry to have been born in this world and I'm sorry if my existence in all of your lives causes pain and sadness. I'm worthless, hopeless and I'm a failure.

Maybe I shouldn't be at home often. Friends, they're far way better than a family. Friends understand us whilst family don't. All u can get from your family are accusations. Why? Why is it so hard for them to understand?
♥ with love, syahida ♥ at 6/28/2011 12:30:00 AM