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stolen soul

My heart is jaded
Completely desolate inside
No longer feel alive

Depleted by negativity
Drained of all emotion
Impalpable to society
Always feeling like there is no place here for me

Now an isolated figure
so far away
Time has broken me
And plagued my memory

Detached from myself
Walking empty and alone
Soulless victim
Angel of misery



gugurnya tugu ilusi

Terhimpit pilu di dada,
Mengalir deras air mata,
Kala sepi terus melanda,
Sayu, pilu ku terasa...

Sewaktu dingin malam berlalu,
Bintang menjadi tempat mengadu,
Persoalan membelengu diri,
Duka menghiris hati ini.

Apakah memang ku bersalah?
Untuk memendam rasa cinta?
Adakah benar cinta yang ku alami?
Atau hanya sekadar ilusi?

Pabila ku hampir terlena,
Pelukan bayangmu yang ku rasa,
Alunan suaramu membisik sayu di telinga,
Lakaran wajahmu menghiasi mimpi indah...

Akan ku musnahkan tugu harapan,
Akan ku anggap kau sebagai teman,
Sekiranya kita berdua,
Tidak ditakdirkan bersama...



unanswered?

What has my lyfe morphed into?
I've been hurt,
Wounded ever so deeply.
But does anyone care?
You, you, or even you?
No, everybody's juz busy wit their lyfes.
Carin' for their own happiness,
Oblivious to the surrounding.
The fake, "I care for u!" phrase,
I'm tired of it all.
Just let me weep & cry in silence.
Let my heart bleed.
Coz it doesn't matter to u,
No it doesn't.
U dun even wonder y.
Do u?

Shattered,
Broken,
Hurt,
Tired,
Wounded,
Bruised,
Unanswered?

Wearin' a fake smile,
I enclosed the sadness in me..
I create lame jokes,
To liven up the joyness within me.
But does it really lasts long?
Am I that strong?
To hide how hurt I am?
Am I?

Leave me alone.
For all that matters now,
Im gonna be like u-
Ignorant to everytin'
It's no use to pretend that u care,
I'm dead.
Every hour & minute,
Is my death...



hanya untuk mu...

Tatkala bintang menemani bumi,
Memori dahulu ku kupas kembali.
Rindu pun bertandang,
Kemasyghulan menyelimuti hati...

Berbaring pada ambin kebingungan,
Aku menyelak tabir kenangan,
Mencari penamat beribu soalan...
"Mengapa? Mengapa? Aku gugup.

Seringkali bayangan mu diingati,
Kesyahduan menenggelami jiwa.
Aku dambakan belaian mu,
Tangan yang mengusap lembut dahiku...

Namun, semuanya telah ditelan waktu.
13 tahun sudah pun berlalu.
Kau telah lama pergi dan tidak mungkin kan kembali.
Aku mengerti, kau yang lebih disayangi...

Ayah, mungkinkah dikau sedang sentiasa
mendoakan puterimu ini?
Melihatku mengorak langkah ke alam dewasa...
Dari jendela istana abadimu disana?

Hanya dapat ku titip doa,
Diiringi jernih air mataku...
Semoga Tuhan menempatkanmu di tempat
orang-orang yang beriman.
Semoga jua Tuhan mencucuri rahmat keatas rohmu...
Amin.

prinsessa

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Monday, May 07, 2007


I'm not feelin' well for these few daes.
fact is, from last week.
i'm down wit flu.
urgh......
my head is throbbing in pain.
my throat feels sore..
n my body feels so heaty inside.
i hate bein' sick.
i can't sleep well, i'm so moody and all.
but i have to recover before tmw.
wanna go out wit my frenz.

hmm. lemme update a lil bit on my life.
on the 4th may, PRCP's finally over n yeah!
I passed.... =) here cums graduation.....
i'm soooo glad i made it thru PRCP. phew.
at least, a burden is lifted off me.

5th May as usual, i'm workin'.
and as usual, i'm late.
hey, i'm sick okay... hehe. excuses.
aniwaes, guess wat???
tis very popular Indonesian actor came to our store!
doin' sum retail therapy thingy wit his wife.
i really wanted to take pic wit him but u noe me,
i was sooooo shy!
the rest of my colleagues took pics wit him..
anw, he was lookin' at my direction wen he's paying the stuffs.
hahahahahha. perasan...
u noe who he is?
Gunawan or better known as Arman in the TV series, Hikmah.



so tat's basically the highlight for saturday.

on sun, 6th may,
went to Marina Square to celebrate my fren's bdae.



the bdae gurl's name, is Didilia. =P. no lah, it's Lydia.
here she is...



HAPPY BELATED 20th BDAE DIDILIA!!!!
tis is juz the beginnin of life.
dun give up on it for sumtin sooo stupid.
there are many pple out there who wud gladly want to live ur life.
u still have both parents wit u.
and ur family looks kinda stable, financial wise.
i'm pretty sure ur parents care so much bout u.
there are many colors tat u've yet to add in ur life.
so do it now.
grab all the unlimited editions only in....
7-eleven it's a store and more!
hahahahaha. crap.
seriously,
may u found joy in ur future ahead.
and may GOD bless u...
take care.

so let's ctnue.
we ate at Pizza Huts but i kinda feel so uneasy.
so restless. i dun even feel like goin' out matter of fact.
but no, it's my fren's bdae n i shud celebrate together.
see how sweet i can be. hehe.




after tat lip-smacking-but-idunhavethemood meal,
Kak Su headed to her bf's crib whilst all 4 of us walked our way to esplanade.
but there's tis so idioticlyirritating monster who sat opposite us and kept staring towards our direction.
he was practically feasting his eyes on us.
nincompoop jerk.
worst still, we got up to the ladies after sittin' there for an hour.
n he followed us!!! standing near the directory as if he can blend well wit it.
urgh. stalker.
den we walked slowly towards city link n he STILL followed.
we stopped. he stopped.
stared at him. he stared back.
I was soooo pissed! all of us felt like confronting him.
but we dun wanna create a commotion.
even felt like telling the security but wat proof do we have???
den we thought he was gone wen we went up the escalator to raffles city.
but, he came up the escalator too!!!!!
we waited for a few minutes there and thought that he will go off.
wen we lost sight of him, we decided to go home.
we felt it was safe until we saw him hiding in the corner, still waiting.
by den, i really wanted to inform the security if he still tagged along.
insane freak. notin' better to do.
mad stalker.

yeah, tat's all for now.
still feelin' rather sickly.
all i want now is my comfy pillow, bolster and my comforter.
oh, i need pepsi too.
pepsi=caffeine=less headache wen having fever.
tat's "Syahida's theory".
u'll cum by it sumdae in ur life.
toodles pple.
no kisses todae.u'll catch my flu.


ALMOST everytin' looks black and white.
and ALMOST everytin' feels bitter.

with love, syahida at 5/07/2007 02:04:00 PM

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