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stolen soul

My heart is jaded
Completely desolate inside
No longer feel alive

Depleted by negativity
Drained of all emotion
Impalpable to society
Always feeling like there is no place here for me

Now an isolated figure
so far away
Time has broken me
And plagued my memory

Detached from myself
Walking empty and alone
Soulless victim
Angel of misery



gugurnya tugu ilusi

Terhimpit pilu di dada,
Mengalir deras air mata,
Kala sepi terus melanda,
Sayu, pilu ku terasa...

Sewaktu dingin malam berlalu,
Bintang menjadi tempat mengadu,
Persoalan membelengu diri,
Duka menghiris hati ini.

Apakah memang ku bersalah?
Untuk memendam rasa cinta?
Adakah benar cinta yang ku alami?
Atau hanya sekadar ilusi?

Pabila ku hampir terlena,
Pelukan bayangmu yang ku rasa,
Alunan suaramu membisik sayu di telinga,
Lakaran wajahmu menghiasi mimpi indah...

Akan ku musnahkan tugu harapan,
Akan ku anggap kau sebagai teman,
Sekiranya kita berdua,
Tidak ditakdirkan bersama...



unanswered?

What has my lyfe morphed into?
I've been hurt,
Wounded ever so deeply.
But does anyone care?
You, you, or even you?
No, everybody's juz busy wit their lyfes.
Carin' for their own happiness,
Oblivious to the surrounding.
The fake, "I care for u!" phrase,
I'm tired of it all.
Just let me weep & cry in silence.
Let my heart bleed.
Coz it doesn't matter to u,
No it doesn't.
U dun even wonder y.
Do u?

Shattered,
Broken,
Hurt,
Tired,
Wounded,
Bruised,
Unanswered?

Wearin' a fake smile,
I enclosed the sadness in me..
I create lame jokes,
To liven up the joyness within me.
But does it really lasts long?
Am I that strong?
To hide how hurt I am?
Am I?

Leave me alone.
For all that matters now,
Im gonna be like u-
Ignorant to everytin'
It's no use to pretend that u care,
I'm dead.
Every hour & minute,
Is my death...



hanya untuk mu...

Tatkala bintang menemani bumi,
Memori dahulu ku kupas kembali.
Rindu pun bertandang,
Kemasyghulan menyelimuti hati...

Berbaring pada ambin kebingungan,
Aku menyelak tabir kenangan,
Mencari penamat beribu soalan...
"Mengapa? Mengapa? Aku gugup.

Seringkali bayangan mu diingati,
Kesyahduan menenggelami jiwa.
Aku dambakan belaian mu,
Tangan yang mengusap lembut dahiku...

Namun, semuanya telah ditelan waktu.
13 tahun sudah pun berlalu.
Kau telah lama pergi dan tidak mungkin kan kembali.
Aku mengerti, kau yang lebih disayangi...

Ayah, mungkinkah dikau sedang sentiasa
mendoakan puterimu ini?
Melihatku mengorak langkah ke alam dewasa...
Dari jendela istana abadimu disana?

Hanya dapat ku titip doa,
Diiringi jernih air mataku...
Semoga Tuhan menempatkanmu di tempat
orang-orang yang beriman.
Semoga jua Tuhan mencucuri rahmat keatas rohmu...
Amin.

prinsessa

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Thursday, July 19, 2007



sumtimes..
i juz wish i cud throw my hp far, far, away.
(rosak pun rosak lar...)
den, i wud picture myself at the beach, sitting on top of the huge rocks,
admiring the simplicity yet splendid view of nature.
releasing myself into pure tranquility.
letting my tired self loose- cryin and screamin as loud as i cud.
but, reality, combined wit how small tis country is,
i am bound to gain attention frm the many pple ard.
n of course, "oi, xiao ah?" wud be one of the commonest comments.
it is indeed inevitable. n u'll have to visit me at Woodbridge later. hehe.
so, so, so.. i nd volunteers to be wit me. ppuhleeseee...
who wants to throw 'em hp, sream n shout n get trademarked as sum crazy person?
den go Woodbridge together-gether. (hand in hand. lalalalalalala....)
who? who? who? who? who?

ohkay. judging frm wat i typed in earlier, u guys might conclude tat i'm bein unsociable.
yeah, i admit. tat's how bad i am.
i can be distant to those i've known for long too.
sorry... but tat's me.
anw, reason is, i've still hv yet to iron my life straight.
and discover more complexities of life.
tat's y at times, i'm kinda reserved.
i noe, tis entry is sumhow perplexing to u guys but wat the heck.
tis is my blog.



hmmm... work has been kinda still in the honeymoon stage.
have not started work in the ward yet.
n those gurls above are the ones i've been clickin' wit for the past 3 wks or so.
all of us, will be posted to diff departments. cool huh?
one more wk of orientation and off to torture land we go!!!
zooooooooommmmm....
ouh, i've learn the art of blood withdrawal and cannulation.
pheewit! anybdy wants to be my dummy?
n i've been recertified being CPR abled.
the instructor told me tis, "badan kicik pon bagus ah.."
muahahahaha. tat's FUNNY.

n these are taken during my graduatn day.



(click to enlarge)
see pple. how drowned i look in tat BIG, BIG, BIG graduation robe.


one more tin', my breakouts are gettin' worser!!!!
mayb due to the climate?
dunno lah eh... but i've bought myself tis solution tat costs 30 bucks.
(terkopak duit gue)
n juz one day, the zits are tamed. =)
lesser n lesser.
hope it'll be tis way. till foreva, n eva, n eva n eva n eva.

countin the days go by...

with love, syahida at 7/19/2007 08:57:00 PM

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